Chapter 8

The summer dance program began with a family meeting I nearly missed.
Ava had asked us to attend a short welcome event before her first class. I wrote it on the calendar but entered the wrong time in my phone. Monique caught the mistake while we were eating breakfast.
“We need to leave in twenty minutes,” she said.
I checked the email.
She was right.
Malik ran upstairs for his shoes. I apologized to Ava and promised we would make it.
We did, with five minutes to spare. I watched Ava walk into the studio beside Monique, carrying her bag and trying not to smile too broadly.
Malik leaned against me.
“She’s nervous,” he said.
“She is.”
“She’ll be good.”
At lunch, Ava came out flushed and excited. She told us about the routine all the way to the car. Malik asked her to show him a step when we got home. She taught him two.
The children were growing closer in ways I couldn’t arrange for them. I was careful to let it happen at their pace.
Monique and I were still working on ours.
We had hard conversations after the children were asleep. Sometimes she wanted me to recognize how much she did for the house. Sometimes I needed her to hear that those efforts had not made the dinners or missed pickups harmless.
Dr. Ellis helped us speak plainly. We no longer tried to settle everything in one night.
In July, Malik’s art teacher invited families to see the students’ work. Malik asked all of us to come.
He stood beside his painting when we entered. It showed a kitchen table under a bright light. Four chairs surrounded it. Each one held a person, drawn with just enough detail for me to recognize us.
I had to step closer to see the smallest thing: a plate in front of every chair.
Malik watched my face.
“What do you think?”
“I love it.”
Ava pointed to the figure in the pink hoodie.
“You made me look cool.”
“You are cool sometimes,” he said.
Monique stood beside me. Her eyes were wet.
“It’s beautiful,” she told him.
He nodded, then turned to answer a question from his teacher.
Monique leaned toward me.
“I know why he painted all four plates.”
“So do I.”
When the show ended, we asked Malik whether he wanted the painting hung at home. He said yes, in the dining room.
I put it up that night. He stood on a chair beside me to make sure it was straight.
A few days later, Tasha’s mother, Mrs. Brooks, came to visit. She lived several states away and called Malik every Sunday. She had heard some of what happened from him, and I had spoken with her before she traveled.
I met her at the door.
“How is he really?” she asked.
“Better. I’m paying closer attention.”
She studied me, then stepped inside.
Malik ran down the stairs and threw his arms around her. She held him for a long time.
Over dinner, she asked about school and art. Ava showed her pictures from dance class. Monique made room for her at the table and listened while she told stories about Tasha as a girl.
After the children went to bed, Mrs. Brooks asked to speak with Monique and me.
“I’m glad Malik has people looking after him,” she said. “I also need to know that if he calls me and says something is wrong, I can speak to you both.”
“You can,” I said.
Monique nodded.
“I let him down. I’m sorry.”
Mrs. Brooks looked at her for a long moment.
“Then show him you can hear him now.”
It was firm and fair. Monique thanked her.
Before Mrs. Brooks left two days later, Malik gave her a drawing of the house. He put her in a window on the page with a phone in her hand.
“She calls me on Sundays,” he explained.
She laughed and hugged him.
After we drove her to the station, Malik asked whether we could visit her during the school break. We made plans that evening.
I took care to ask Ava if she wanted to come. She did. Monique checked her work schedule and asked Mrs. Brooks whether all four of us would be welcome.
Mrs. Brooks said yes.
It seemed like a small exchange. I knew what it meant to Malik.
That night, I found him standing beneath his painting in the dining room.
“Are you happy with where we hung it?” I asked.
“Yeah.”
He looked at the four chairs.
“I was scared to show it to Monique.”
“Why?”
“I didn’t know if she’d want to be in it.”
I put an arm around his shoulders.
“She was glad to see it.”
May you like
“I know.”
He stayed there another minute, looking at the painting, before going upstairs. I turned off the dining-room light and followed him.