Chapter 5

The woman at the housing office asked me to stay on the line.
She read the date of the withdrawal message. It had been sent that morning, while Mia was upstairs in my room.
My throat tightened.
“I still want to be considered for the grant,” I said. “I mailed the form today.”
The woman checked my file. She said she would add a note that I had not authorized the withdrawal. She also told me to change the password on my college account.
When I hung up, Dad asked exactly what she had said. I told him.
He called Vanessa.
I stood near the kitchen counter while he spoke.
“Did Mia send a message from Aaliyah’s account?”
Vanessa went quiet. Dad put the call on speaker after asking her, so I heard her answer.
“She says she doesn’t know what you mean.”
“The college received a withdrawal request this morning,” Dad said.
“Then ask the college who sent it.”
“They called Aaliyah to check. Mia was in her room today, holding the application she’d damaged.”
Vanessa exhaled. “I’ll talk to her.”
“You need to do more than ask and accept the first answer.”
“I’m her mother.”
“And I’m Aaliyah’s father.”
Vanessa ended the call.
Dad helped me change my password. We checked the recent activity on my account and saved the notice showing when the withdrawal request had been submitted.
I felt sick looking at the time. Mia had been in my bedroom then. Dad had been downstairs speaking with Vanessa. I had been close enough to stop her if I’d known what she was doing.
“This isn’t your fault,” Dad said.
“I know.” I said it because he needed to hear me say it. I didn’t feel sure yet.
At the bakery the next day, I kept checking my email between customers. My manager, Mrs. Patel, asked if I was feeling well.
I told her part of the story.
She took me into the small office after my shift. “I remember when you asked for extra Saturdays to save for that dress.”
“I’m applying for the housing grant too.”
“Do you need copies of your pay records?”
“Yes. The application asked about my income.”
She printed what I needed and put it in an envelope. Then she said, “You’ve done the work. Let people help protect it.”
I carried that sentence home with me.
Dad had left a message from Vanessa on the kitchen table. She and Mia wanted to meet at the counselor’s office in two days. Mia was willing to apologize, Vanessa said, if we would stop accusing her of contacting the college.
I read the message twice.
“She’s making the apology depend on us believing her,” I said.
Dad nodded. “I told her I won’t arrange a meeting for you.”
“Are you going?”
“Yes. I want to hear what she says when someone else asks her to explain.”
I didn’t want him to go. I was afraid Vanessa would sound calm and Mia would cry and he would decide it had all been a misunderstanding.
Dad saw it on my face.
“You can tell me that,” he said.
“I’m scared you’ll forgive them and bring them back.”
“I may forgive them someday. That won’t give them a key.”
He let me sit with that.
On Monday, the college emailed me to confirm that my grant application remained active. The form I had mailed had arrived before the deadline. I read the message at the bakery and had to go into the storeroom to cry.
Mrs. Patel found me there.
“Good news?” she asked.
“Yes.”
“Then take five minutes.”
Dad’s meeting with Vanessa and Mia was that evening. Grandma came over so I wouldn’t be alone. We made soup and watched a baking show without paying much attention to it.
Dad got home after nine.
Vanessa had admitted she saw Mia take my first application from my room days earlier. She had told Mia to put it back but hadn’t checked whether she did.
“She knew?” I asked.
“Yes.”
“She watched me look for it.”
Dad’s face tightened. “I asked her why she stayed quiet. She said she hoped Mia would return it and we could all move on.”
“And the message to the college?”
“Mia admitted sending it. She guessed your password from something you used to say when you were little.”
I sat down. The password had been the name of the dog Mom and I loved when I was a child. Mia had heard me talk about him for years.
“Did Vanessa know that too?”
“She said she found out today.”
“Do you believe her?”
“I don’t know. I’m not going to guess about what I can’t prove.”
He handed me a sheet from the counselor. Mia had written an apology during the session. Dad said I could read it or leave it.
I read it.
Mia admitted cutting the dress, damaging the form, and sending the withdrawal request. She wrote that she had been jealous and wanted me to feel as disappointed as she did.
The last sentence said, “I hope you’ll accept my apology so we can all come home.”
I set the paper down.
“She still wants something from me.”
“You don’t owe her an answer.”
Dad told me he was arranging for Mia to pay back the cost of the dress from her savings and future work. He would reimburse the cost of the damaged bag himself. Vanessa and Mia would stay with her sister while he and Vanessa decided what to do about their marriage.
Grandma squeezed my shoulder.
That night, I put Mia’s letter in a drawer. I wasn’t ready to forgive her. I was relieved that she had finally admitted what she did.
Before bed, I checked my college account again. My application was still there. I logged out and looked at the pale blue scraps folded in a paper bag beside my closet.
May you like
I had kept them because I couldn’t bear to throw away all those hours at the bakery.
I didn’t know what to do with them yet.