Chapter 10

The following spring, I came home for a long weekend.
Dad met me at the bus station with a coat because I had forgotten mine. He took my bag and listened while I told him about a class project I had presented that morning.
I had spoken in front of forty people. I had been nervous, but I knew my work and answered every question.
“Did you enjoy it?” he asked.
“I did.”
He smiled. “You’re going to tell Grandma every detail.”
“I know.”
At home, she was waiting with dinner. Janelle joined us. We ate for nearly two hours because everyone kept asking another question about school, work, or the bakery. Dad had finally learned to make enough pasta for the number of people at the table.
After Janelle left, Grandma told me the sewing shop had something for me.
I went with her the next morning. Ms. Evelyn brought out a small parcel. Inside was a hair ribbon made from the last usable strip of my pale blue dress.
“I saved this piece when I made your pouch,” she said. “Your grandmother thought you might want it.”
I touched the silk. I had carried the pouch all year. Seeing the fabric in another shape no longer made my stomach turn.
“Thank you,” I said.
I tied the ribbon around my ponytail before we left the shop.
That afternoon, I met Dad and Grandma at the park. Celia had invited us to a picnic for her daughter’s birthday. Vanessa and Mia would be there too. Dad had told me weeks ahead of time and made it clear I could choose whether to come.
I had decided I wanted to.
Mia was setting out drinks when I arrived. She glanced at the ribbon, recognized it, and stopped moving.
“Ms. Evelyn made it,” I said.
“It looks nice.”
“Thanks.”
We carried the drinks to the table together. That was all we said for a while, and it was enough.
Later, Vanessa came over while I was helping Grandma cut cake.
“Your dad said your presentation went well,” she said.
“It did.”
“I’m glad.”
She stayed to pass out plates. She didn’t try to turn a birthday picnic into another conversation about the past. When she left, she thanked me for coming.
Mia found me near the swings after everyone had eaten.
“I’m applying to a training program,” she said. “The counselor at school helped me choose one.”
“What kind?”
“Graphic design.”
“You’ve always been good at drawing.”
She looked surprised that I remembered.
“I’m trying to make something with it,” she said.
“I hope it goes well.”
She glanced at the blue ribbon once more. “I’m glad you found a way to keep part of the dress.”
I could hear how much effort it took her to say it. I appreciated that she said it without asking me to make her feel better.
“I am too,” I answered.
I went back to Dad and Grandma when I was ready. Dad didn’t ask whether Mia and I had settled everything. He handed me the last slice of cake because he knew I liked the corner with extra frosting.
That evening, we returned to our house. I helped Dad clear the kitchen table, then took out the pouch I carried at college.
Inside were Mom’s photograph, Grandma’s graduation note, and a picture of Dad and me on the day he helped me move into my dorm. He was holding a box. I was holding the little plant Grandma had insisted I take.
I added the photo Janelle had taken at the park that afternoon. In it, I was laughing with Dad. The blue ribbon was visible in my hair.
Dad looked over my shoulder.
“Is that one going to college with you?”
“Yes.”
I zipped the pouch and put it in my bag.
I had received every dollar Mia owed for the dress. Vanessa had admitted how she failed me. Mia had admitted what she chose to do, and she was doing the work of changing it. Dad had taken responsibility for his anger and made our home a place where I could tell him the truth.
I knew those things because I had heard them and seen them, month after month. I no longer had to guess what anyone meant when they said they cared about me.
Dad turned off the kitchen light and walked me to the stairs.
“Tell me about the question they asked after your presentation,” he said. “The hard one.”
May you like
I told him. Halfway through my answer, I began explaining the work I hoped to do next year. He listened all the way to my bedroom door.
I felt safe, loved, and proud of where I was going. When I finished speaking, Dad smiled at me, and I knew he had heard every word.