Chapter 1

The first thing Tara said when she saw the empty space in her purse was my name.
“Maya!”
I stopped halfway up the stairs.
I knew that voice. It meant something had gone wrong, and Tara had already decided I was responsible.
She stood in the living room with her black leather purse open. Dad was in the kitchen making coffee.
“Where’s my fifty dollars?” she asked.
“I don’t know.”
“It was here this morning.”
She tipped the purse toward me, as if I might see the answer inside it.
I was seventeen. I had lived in that house all my life. But since Dad married Tara, I had learned to keep my hands away from her things and ask before opening a cupboard.
“I haven’t touched your purse,” I said.
Tara closed it with a snap.
“You were home alone while Marcus was out.”
Dad appeared in the kitchen doorway.
“What’s going on?”
“Money is missing,” Tara said. “I want Maya out of this house.”
For a moment, I couldn’t understand the words. Then my eyes went to Dad.
“I didn’t take it.”
Dad set down his mug.
“Tara, slow down.”
“She was the only person here.”
“That doesn’t mean she took it.”
Tara gave him a hard look.
“So you’re choosing her side.”
“I’m asking how you know the money was there when you got home.”
“I put it in my purse this morning.”
She sounded certain. That frightened me more than if she had shouted.
“I was upstairs doing homework,” I said. “Dad, you can check.”
Tara turned to me.
“We will.”
I hated how quickly I had offered. I hated more that I knew refusing would make me look guilty to her.
We went upstairs together.
Tara entered my bedroom first. She pulled open my desk drawers and searched beneath my notebooks. Then she opened my dresser.
I stood beside the door, trying not to cry.
Dad watched her. His silence hurt, even though he had defended me downstairs.
Tara picked up my backpack and emptied it onto the bed. My pencils rolled across the blanket. A photograph of Mom slipped out of a book and landed faceup.
Tara glanced at it, then kept searching.
“There’s nothing,” I said.
She looked inside the empty bag once more.
“No cash here.”
“I told you.”
“That doesn’t mean you didn’t spend it.”
Dad stepped between us.
“Stop.”
Tara straightened.
“I’m trying to find my money.”
“You searched her room and found nothing. Now you’re accusing her of spending it.”
“I said she could have.”
“You wanted me to throw her out.”
Tara looked away.
I began putting my things back into the bag. My hands shook so badly I dropped a pencil twice.
Dad bent to help. When he reached across the dresser, he noticed a grocery receipt beside my hairbrush.
“Why is this in Maya’s room?” he asked.
“Tara left it on the kitchen counter,” I said. “She asked me to bring her things upstairs.”
Dad turned the receipt over. A small note was written on the back in Tara’s handwriting.
He held it toward her.
“What does ‘fifty dollars, cash’ mean?”
Tara took one look and went still.
“It’s just a reminder.”
“A reminder of what?”
“I write down expenses.”
Dad studied her face.
“Did you pay the grocery delivery driver today?”
She pressed her lips together.
The driver had brought the order that morning. I had heard Tara speaking to him at the front door while I worked upstairs.
“His card machine wasn’t working,” Dad said. “Did you give him cash?”
Tara closed her eyes.
“Yes.”
“The fifty dollars from your purse?”
“Yes.”
The room felt suddenly small.
I looked at the drawers still hanging open. My clothes were folded badly where Tara had pushed them aside.
“You remembered enough to write it down,” I said.
“I forgot afterward,” Tara answered.
“You wanted me out because you forgot.”
“I made a mistake.”
I waited for more. She said nothing.
Dad picked up the photograph of Mom and handed it to me. Then he helped me return my books to the bag.
“I’m sorry,” he said quietly. “I should have stopped the search.”
I wanted to tell him that he should have stopped Tara the moment she mentioned throwing me out. My throat tightened around the words.
“I didn’t take it,” I said again.
“I know.”
I wished hearing that had come sooner.
Tara stood near the door.
“Maya, I didn’t mean for it to go this far.”
“But you took it this far.”
She looked toward Dad, then down at the floor.
I put Mom’s photograph on the dresser. In it, she was laughing at something outside the frame. The picture had been taken before she got sick, when this room still felt like a place nobody could take from me.
Dad rested his hand on my shoulder.
“You’re my daughter,” he said. “You’re staying here.”
I leaned into him and cried.
He held me until I could breathe again.
When we went downstairs, Tara stayed in my doorway. I looked back once and saw her staring at the open dresser.
The fifty dollars was accounted for.
But Tara had blamed me before, over smaller things. Each time, she found a way to make me feel that defending myself was the problem.
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Dad had seen the whole thing tonight.
I wondered what he would do when he remembered the others.