Chapter 10

Noah’s birthday fell on a Saturday.
He wanted a small party at our house with Simone, Leila, Andre, a few friends from school, and enough pizza for everyone to choose a different topping. He wanted Pascal to make the chocolate cake because Pascal always put too much frosting between the layers.
I had been home with Noah for six weeks by then.
The first weekend had felt strange. Noah had checked that his backpack was still in his room before bed. The next morning, he found it where he had left it. He stopped checking after a while.
Pascal noticed. So did I.
We kept going to counseling. Some talks were easy. Others ended with both of us needing a walk before we could finish. Each time, we came back and finished. I had learned I could say I was hurt without being told to choose a side.
Andre called on Sunday evenings and visited for Noah’s games. Pascal helped with homework on weekdays. Noah asked questions about both houses and got answers from the adults involved.
Vivian had not been invited to the birthday party. She had sent Noah a card through Pascal. We read it together and let him decide whether to write back. He drew her a picture of his bicycle. Pascal mailed it without asking him for more.
Harrow had complied with the safety orders. Andre’s medical bills and lost wages were being addressed through the claims process, with Ms. Brooks making sure he understood each decision. Rosa was back at work with her record corrected. She had been invited to the party too, though her shift kept her away. She sent Noah a card with a sketch of Captain the bear.
Andre arrived carrying a present in one hand and his cane in the other.
Noah ran across the living room, then slowed before hugging him.
“You can hug me properly now,” Andre said.
Noah did.
Leila followed with a bag of party hats. Simone took one look at the frosting on Pascal’s sleeves and began laughing.
“Was the cake a fight?” she asked.
“I won,” Pascal said.
“You’ve got chocolate on your ear,” I told him.
He wiped the wrong ear. I kissed the clean one and showed him the other with my finger.
Andre saw us and smiled.
A year earlier, I might have worried about what either man thought of the other’s place at this table. That afternoon, Andre helped Noah open a model airplane while Pascal looked for the missing batteries. Neither asked Noah to turn away from the other.
When it was time for cake, Noah called them both into the kitchen.
“Dad, stand here. Pascal, you go there.”
He arranged us around the table as if directing a photograph. I stood behind him and rested my hands on his shoulders.
Pascal lit the candles. Andre lowered the kitchen lights.
Noah closed his eyes for a long moment before blowing them out.
“What did you wish for?” Simone asked.
“If I tell you, it won’t happen.”
“Then I hope it does,” she said.
After the guests left, Andre waited while Noah found Captain the bear. The bear had spent several weeks in the hospital and come home missing one button eye.
Noah held it out.
“You should have him back,” Andre said.
“I want him to stay in my room. You can borrow him if you get scared.”
Andre knelt as far as his leg allowed and hugged him.
“I’ll remember that.”
I walked Andre to the door. He thanked Pascal for the cake, and Pascal asked whether he wanted a slice to take home. Andre accepted the largest one.
When the door closed, I stood still for a moment.
“What is it?” Pascal asked.
“I remember the night I went to the hospital.”
“So do I.”
“I was afraid I would come back and find there was no place for Noah and me.”
Pascal looked toward the living room, where Noah was showing Simone his new airplane before she left.
“I’m sorry I made you afraid of that,” he said.
“I know.”
I took his hand.
“I also know what we’ve built since.”
He squeezed my fingers. “I’m grateful you let me try.”
“I’m glad you kept trying.”
Simone said goodbye, and soon the house was quiet. Noah carried his presents upstairs. A minute later, he called down for help finding the airplane’s smallest piece.
Pascal and I went together.
We found it under Noah’s bed. He clicked it into place, then set the finished airplane beside Captain.
“Can we have leftover cake tomorrow?” he asked.
“Yes,” I said.
“Both of you?”
“Both of us,” Pascal answered.
Noah smiled and climbed under his blanket.
I kissed his forehead. Pascal turned off the bright light and left the small lamp on, just as Noah liked it.
Downstairs, three empty plates waited beside the cake. I put them in the sink and looked around the kitchen.
My son was safe upstairs. Andre was going home with Leila. Pascal stood beside me, ready to wash the plates while I wrapped the last slice of cake.
I knew I could leave this house whenever someone I loved needed me. I knew I would be welcome when I came back.
May you like
Pascal reached for a dish towel.
I handed him a plate, and we began cleaning up together.