Chapter 6

Rosie met a child counselor named Dr. Ellis.
At their first visit, she took her rabbit and refused to let go of my hand. Dr. Ellis put paper and crayons on a low table and told Rosie she could decide whether I stayed.
“I want Daddy here,” Rosie said.
“Then he can stay,” Dr. Ellis replied.
I sat in a chair while they drew. Rosie made a picture of our living room. She drew Daniel on the couch, herself with the rabbit, and me standing beside the front door.
“Why is Daddy there?” Dr. Ellis asked.
“He watches it.”
I felt the words settle in my chest.
“I do,” I said.
Dr. Ellis asked Rosie what else helped her feel safe. Rosie said Miss Olivia at school, Daniel’s moon-bus stories, and the small lamp in her bedroom. She did not have to talk about the storage room that day.
We kept going back. Some days she drew. Some days she played with toy animals. Once, on the way home, she told me the worst part had been believing Leah might really be behind the door.
“I wanted her to be there,” Rosie said. “But I was scared she wouldn’t like me if I didn’t go.”
I pulled over so I could face her.
“Mommy loved you every day of her life. Bethany used something you wished for to frighten you. That was wrong.”
Rosie looked down at her rabbit.
“Mommy can’t come back.”
“No,” I said. “I wish she could.”
“Can we still talk about her?”
“Always.”
Rosie asked me to tell the story of how Leah chose the rabbit at a fair. I told her as we drove home.
At the next meeting with the investigator, I learned that Bethany’s account had changed. First she had said Rosie fell while playing. Then she said the storage-room door had closed by accident. Lena’s video showed Bethany holding the door shut.
My father continued to say Lena misunderstood the scene. Mom’s statement disagreed with him.
I wanted the case resolved immediately. The investigator explained that each person needed to be heard and the evidence reviewed. I asked what I could do in the meantime.
“Keep Rosie’s routine steady,” she said. “Let us know if anyone contacts her or comes to your home.”
I could do that.
The complaint about my striking Bethany was handled separately. I gave my statement again and accepted the consequences that followed. I told the people reviewing it I had been wrong to hit her. I did not ask them to excuse it because I was frightened for Rosie.
When Lena found out, she called me.
“She hurt Rosie first,” she said. “Why should you get in trouble?”
“Because I hit her while I was holding Rosie. I scared Rosie too.”
“You were protecting her.”
“I needed to carry her out. I wish I’d done that without striking Bethany.”
Lena was quiet for a moment.
“I wish I had opened the door faster,” she said.
“You tried. You recorded what happened when the adults around you wanted silence. Rosie knows you tried to help her.”
“Does she?”
“I told her.”
Lena began to cry. Aaron took the phone when she asked him to. He thanked me for speaking to her and said she was getting support too.
That weekend, Daniel helped me build a low shelf for Rosie’s books. She handed us screws one at a time and announced that we were doing it wrong whenever we laughed.
For almost an hour, she forgot to look toward the door.
Then the bell rang.
Rosie dropped the screw in her hand. She came behind me.
I checked the window. A delivery driver stood outside with a box of books I had ordered. I told Rosie who it was before opening the door.
She stayed in the hallway and watched him leave. Once he was gone, she helped me open the box.
“Can we read the fox one?” she asked.
“We can read every one.”
At bedtime, I heard her talking softly to the rabbit.
“You don’t have to go in the dark room,” she told it. “You can stay with me.”
I stood outside her door, listening. I wanted to go in and promise her that nothing frightening would ever happen again. I couldn’t promise that. I could keep showing her where I was and answer when she called.
Mom’s letter arrived the following week. I read it first. She apologized to Rosie for failing to open the door sooner and for not telling me the truth at dinner. She did not ask Rosie to forgive her or visit.
I showed the envelope to Dr. Ellis, then asked Rosie whether she wanted to hear it. She said no.
May you like
“All right,” I told her.
I put it in a drawer where it would wait until she asked.