Chapter 9

Grayson turned eighteen on a cold Saturday in March.
Mrs. Delgado arrived first, carrying a cake that leaned slightly to one side. My friend Marcus came with his family. Grayson invited three friends from school and asked Valerie to stop by in the afternoon.
I had asked whether he wanted one party or two.
“One,” he said. “I don’t want people acting like they have to avoid each other for me.”
Valerie arrived with a wrapped gift and stood uncertainly in our living room. Grayson greeted her and introduced her to Mrs. Delgado. Within minutes, Mrs. Delgado was telling Valerie how Grayson had once filled every one of her flowerpots with toy cars.
“I was building roads,” Grayson protested.
“You were building work for me,” she said.
Valerie laughed. I saw her looking around at the photographs on our walls. Grayson in a baseball uniform. Grayson missing his front teeth. Grayson asleep against my shoulder after a long car ride.
She did not ask why she wasn’t in them. She listened when other people told stories.
After cake, Grayson opened her gift. It was a small wooden box for the letters and photographs she had given him. She had left the inside empty so he could choose what belonged there.
“Thank you,” he said. “I’ll use it.”
He carried it upstairs with his other presents.
That evening, after the guests had gone, he sat with me at the kitchen table.
“I liked having her here,” he said.
“I’m glad.”
“I also liked that she went home afterward.”
I smiled. “You get to set the pace.”
He reached into his backpack and pulled out a packet from Angela’s office.
“I want to file the adult adoption papers,” he said.
I had known he was thinking about it. I still had to blink back tears when I saw his signature on the first page.
“You’re sure?”
“Yes.”
We went through the forms together. Angela helped us file them. She explained the hearing would be simple if everything was in order. Grayson asked her one question.
“Will Valerie have to come?”
“No,” Angela said. “She won’t be asked to approve your decision. You can tell her yourself if you want to.”
He told her. Valerie called me later, not to argue, but to ask whether she could send flowers after the hearing.
“Ask Grayson,” I said.
She did. He told her she could come to the courthouse afterward if she wanted to congratulate him. She accepted his invitation.
The hearing was set for a morning in May.
As the date approached, Grayson became quieter. I worried he had changed his mind, but when I asked, he shook his head.
“I keep thinking about the first hearing,” he said. “I hated having to prove I wanted to stay.”
“This one is your choice.”
“I know. That’s why I want to do it.”
On the day, we sat in a smaller room than before. Mrs. Delgado came with us. Grayson wore the tie he had chosen for his college interview. I wore the same navy jacket I had worn to his school awards ceremony.
The judge asked whether he understood the request and whether it was his own decision.
“Yes,” he said.
She asked me whether I wanted to adopt him.
I had wanted it when he was too small to say my name. I wanted it when he learned to read and when he left his first baseball glove in the rain. I wanted it when he stood in court and told everyone I was his mother.
“Yes,” I said. “With all my heart.”
The judge approved the adoption. Grayson reached for my hand before she finished speaking.
Outside, Valerie waited with a bouquet of yellow flowers. She handed them to Grayson.
“Congratulations,” she said.
“Thanks.”
She looked at me.
“I’m glad this happened for you both.”
I believed her.
Grayson asked if she would take a photograph of him, Mrs. Delgado, and me on the courthouse steps. She did. Then he asked her to stand beside him for another one. I took that photograph.
There was room for both pictures in his life.
That night, Grayson received the last piece of his financial aid information. With his scholarship, savings, and Valerie’s education contribution, he could attend his first-choice school without taking on the debt we had feared.
He sat on the floor with the letter in his hands.
“I’m really going,” he said.
“You are.”
“And I can come back whenever I want.”
“This is your home.”
He grinned. “Even if I leave laundry here?”
May you like
“We’ll negotiate the laundry.”
For a moment, I saw the boy who used to ask whether I wanted him. Then he stood and began planning what to pack.