Chapter 1

The champagne hit the marble inches from my shoes.
I stepped backward so quickly that my newborn stirred against my chest. Her tiny mouth opened, and I tightened my arm beneath her head before I even looked up.
Nia watched the pale liquid spread around my feet.
“Well,” she said, lifting the empty glass, “that should tell you how welcome you are.”
Behind her, two bridesmaids stopped talking.
I stood beneath a chandelier that probably cost more than everything in my apartment. My gray cardigan had a loose thread at the cuff. My white shirt was clean, but there was a faint milk stain near the shoulder.
I had seen it in the taxi.
I had decided a hungry baby mattered more.
Nia’s hair was still wrapped in large bridal rollers. Her satin robe shone beneath the lights, its feathered cuffs brushing the stem of her glass.
She looked ready to become somebody important.
I felt as though I had already become invisible.
“You really came here looking like that?”
Her eyes traveled from my shoes to the blanket around my daughter.
I glanced toward the hall entrance. Marcus had told me to come through these doors at eleven. He had said someone would meet me.
Nobody had.
“I’m here because—”
“Take the baby and leave before the ceremony.”
My daughter made a small, unhappy sound.
I tucked the blanket closer around her. Sixteen days old, and already I was trying to protect her from people who could hurt without ever touching.
“Her name is Hope,” I said.
Nia smiled without warmth.
“I didn’t ask.”
I had practiced this meeting on the ride over.
I would congratulate Marcus. I would explain that I could not stay long. I would let him hold Hope, because he had missed her birth while traveling home after an emergency overseas.
Then I would leave before anyone noticed how tired I was.
I had not practiced being ordered out.
“Marcus asked me to come.”
Nia’s expression sharpened.
For a second, something moved behind her eyes that looked less like irritation and more like fear.
Then she laughed.
“Marcus doesn’t want you here.”
One bridesmaid lowered her gaze. The other shifted toward a flower arrangement, pretending to adjust a ribbon that needed no adjusting.
Nobody said anything.
I had heard that silence before.
At the funeral, when people told me I was young enough to start over.
At the hospital, when the billing clerk asked whether there was another responsible adult she could call.
At my apartment door, when the landlord said sympathy did not pay rent.
I was twenty-nine.
I had buried my husband seven weeks earlier.
I had given birth without him sixteen days earlier.
I did not have enough strength left to make myself smaller for this woman.
“Then ask him yourself.”
Her smile vanished.
“You need to understand something, Maya. Today is about us.”
“I understand.”
“No, you don’t.”
She leaned closer. I could smell perfume over the sharp scent of spilled champagne.
“You keep finding reasons to make him feel guilty. Calls. Messages. That sad little voice.”
My stomach tightened.
“Most of my calls weren’t answered.”
“Maybe take the hint.”
I looked down at Hope.
She had my mouth and her father’s eyebrows. Sometimes, when she frowned in her sleep, I had to sit down because the resemblance hit me too hard.
Eli would have made a joke about it.
He would have kissed her forehead and told me she already had opinions.
Instead, I was standing in a wedding hall trying not to cry while someone insulted the last piece of him I could hold.
“Marcus said he wanted to meet her.”
Nia looked at the baby again.
“He’s being kind.”
The words landed harder than I expected.
I knew Marcus had money. I knew his hotel business had grown far beyond anything Eli and I could imagine.
But he had also been the man who taught my husband to ride a bike.
The man Eli called when the car broke down.
The man who stood outside our hospital room during a pregnancy scare and refused to leave until a doctor said we were safe.
I had believed that mattered.
“I didn’t come for money,” I said.
Nia raised one eyebrow.
“Of course you didn’t.”
My hands started trembling.
Not because I wanted to shout.
Because I wanted to leave.
Because the nearest exit was only twenty steps away, and pride was a poor reason to stand somewhere my daughter was unwanted.
But Marcus’s message was still on my phone.
Come at eleven. Please, Maya. I need to see you both.
I had read it three times before getting dressed.
“Nia,” one bridesmaid said quietly.
Nia turned on her.
“Don’t.”
The woman fell silent.
A staff member approached with a cloth and a caution sign. I moved carefully away from the wet floor.
Nia did not apologize to him either.
She pointed toward the entrance.
“There’s a side door. Use it.”
“I’ll wait for Marcus.”
“You won’t ruin my wedding.”
“I’m trying to speak to my family.”
That was the wrong word.
Her face changed.
“You are not—”
Footsteps sounded behind me.
I turned before she finished.
Marcus walked into the hall wearing a black tuxedo, a white flower pinned to his lapel. His eyes went first to my face, then to Hope, then to the champagne spreading across the marble.
He stopped.
Nobody moved.
“Maya?”
My throat closed around his name.
I had not seen him since the funeral.
He looked thinner.
He crossed the distance between us and took one look at the way I was holding Hope against my chest.
“What happened?”
Nia straightened.
“Nothing. We were just discussing whether this was appropriate.”
Marcus looked at the empty glass in her hand.
Then he looked at my wet shoe.
“What did you just do to her?”
His voice was quiet enough that everyone nearby leaned toward it.
Nia set the glass on a passing tray.
“Marcus, she doesn’t belong at our wedding.”
I felt Hope turn her face against my shirt.
I whispered that I had her.
Marcus stepped beside me, placing himself between us without touching either of us.
“She belongs here more than anyone.”
Nia stared at him.
The bridesmaids exchanged a look.
My eyes filled so suddenly that the flowers blurred.
“Marcus,” Nia said, “please think about what you’re saying.”
He looked down at Hope.
His jaw tightened.
When he spoke again, his voice shook with something deeper than anger.
May you like
“And if you knew whose baby she’s holding—”
Nia’s face lost its color.