Chapter 10

A year after Lena’s birthday dinner, I hosted a dinner of my own.
We set long tables inside the bakery after closing. June brought flowers. Tasha made too much salad. Lena arrived with a cake she insisted I was not allowed to inspect.
The evening was for the bakery’s tenth anniversary. It was also the first time I had invited everyone who helped me keep it open to sit down together.
Ryan came with a basket of bread from a place he liked across town.
“You own a bakery,” he said when I laughed, “so I thought bringing cake would be insulting.”
“Lena brought cake.”
“She’s braver than I am.”
We had become friends again without asking each other to explain every hard day. He was doing well in his new apartment. I was glad.
Daniel stopped by before the guests arrived. We had agreed it would be easier for both of us if he visited early.
He carried a small wooden frame.
“Your mom’s opening-day photograph,” he said. “I had a new frame made. I found the picture while packing.”
In it, Mom and I stood outside the bakery under a sign we had painted ourselves. We looked tired and impossibly happy.
“Thank you,” I said.
He glanced around the room.
“It looks beautiful.”
“We worked hard.”
“I know.”
He had kept his word about the money. More than that, he had stopped trying to explain away the choices he made. We were not married anymore. We could speak to each other without pretending the past had been different.
“I’m glad you’re doing well,” he said.
“I hope you are too.”
“I’m getting there.”
After he left, I put Mom’s photograph near the front table.
Guests began arriving. June’s niece came with her husband. Celia brought a simple arrangement of white flowers. Priya stopped in briefly to wish us well.
Lena raised a glass.
“To Claire and her mother,” she said. “They built a place where people are treated with care. We’re lucky to be here.”
I looked around the room.
No one was waiting for me to pretend a cruel joke was funny.
No one needed me to make myself smaller so the evening could continue.
When it was my turn to speak, I held the back of a chair to steady my hands.
“Mom and I opened this bakery with one oven,” I said. “When she died, I thought I had to prove I could carry it alone. This year, I learned how many people were willing to help if I let them.”
June smiled at me.
“Tasha and Lena reminded me I could ask. Our team kept working through a difficult season. And all of you kept coming through the door.”
I lifted my glass.
“Thank you for giving this place another ten years to look forward to.”
Everyone raised a glass.
Then Lena revealed her cake. The lettering leaned to one side, and the frosting was uneven.
“I made it myself,” she said.
“It’s perfect.”
“It might taste terrible.”
We cut it anyway. It tasted wonderful.
Later, when the guests had gone, Tasha and I cleared plates. Ryan offered to wash the serving dishes, and June said she would put away the flowers in the morning.
“I can finish,” I told them.
“We know,” Tasha said. “We’re helping.”
I handed Ryan a towel.
Outside, rain began to fall.
I walked to the back room and looked up at the repaired ceiling. It held.
For a moment, I thought of the night I stood in the restaurant doorway watching Megan on Daniel’s lap. I had felt as though thirty people could see me being humiliated and none of them knew what it cost.
Now the people who loved me were in the next room, laughing over whose turn it was to dry a dish.
Tasha called my name.
“Come on. Lena wants a picture.”
I went back to the front of the bakery. June stood on one side of me and Tasha on the other. Lena set the camera timer and ran into place. Ryan nearly tripped over a chair trying to make room.
We all laughed just as the camera flashed.
In the photograph, my mother’s picture stood on the table behind us.
May you like
I looked at it afterward and saw myself smiling without effort.
I put the photograph beside Mom’s and turned off the lights, knowing exactly where I belonged.