Chapter 4

The payment to Diane’s business was only the beginning.
Dana helped me review six months of statements. Vanessa had made several transfers from our joint account to a separate account I didn’t recognize. Some were small enough that I had missed them among household expenses.
One transfer was much larger.
It had been made two days after Nia’s birthday.
I remembered the cake in the trash and the airport call. Vanessa had moved money that same week while telling me everything at home was fine.
Dana asked me to request records from the bank and avoid drawing conclusions before we knew where the money went. I agreed. I still felt sick every time I saw the date.
Renee came over when I asked her. We went through the house together, looking for Nia’s belongings that might have been taken or hidden.
Her favorite photograph of her birth mother was missing from the frame on her desk.
I carried the empty frame to the kitchen.
“Do you know where this is?” I asked Nia.
“Vanessa put it away.”
“When?”
“After I told Ava a story about Mom.”
Nia’s mother, Simone, had died when Nia was three. I had always kept her photographs where Nia could see them. Vanessa had said she supported that. I now wondered what happened when I traveled.
“What did Vanessa say?” I asked.
“That it confused Ava when I called somebody else Mom.”
I sat beside Nia.
“Simone is your mother. You can talk about her whenever you want. We can explain it to Ava together.”
Nia nodded but kept looking at the empty frame.
Caleb appeared in the doorway. “I saw Mom put a box in the garage.”
We searched the storage shelves. Behind old holiday decorations, we found a box containing Nia’s photograph, school awards, several books from Simone’s family, and the blanket her grandmother had made.
Nia stood very still when she saw it.
“She told me those things were gone,” she said.
I wanted to ask why she hadn’t told me. I stopped myself. She had told me she was afraid I would send her away.
I carried the box into her room and let her decide where everything belonged. She put the photograph back first.
Ava came in while we were working. She looked at Simone’s picture and asked, “Is that Nia’s first mom?”
“Yes,” I said.
“Can she tell me about her?”
Nia glanced at me. I waited.
“She liked yellow flowers,” Nia said. “Dad says she always sang while she cooked.”
Ava smiled. “You sing when you make sandwiches.”
Nia smiled back. It was small, but I had missed that smile.
That afternoon, a family services worker came to speak with us after the doctor’s report. Her name was Ms. Benton. She explained what she needed to ask and gave each child a chance to speak without Vanessa present.
I waited in the kitchen while Nia talked with her in the living room. Caleb and Ava spoke afterward. When Ms. Benton met with me, she asked how often I traveled and who cared for the children when I was gone.
I answered honestly. I had worked away from home too much. I had ignored signs because Vanessa gave me explanations that seemed easier to accept.
Ms. Benton wrote it down.
“I’m making changes to my schedule,” I said. “Renee will help when I can’t be here.”
“Good. The children need to know who is responsible for them each day.”
I showed her the photographs, messages, and paperwork. She took copies through the proper process and told me she would speak with Vanessa.
After she left, I stood at the patio door for a long time. The bread was gone. The rain had washed the terrace clean.
Nia came to stand beside me.
“I thought you’d be mad that I told her about the laundry room,” she said.
“Why would I be mad?”
“Vanessa said people would think you were a bad dad.”
I swallowed.
“People can ask me why I didn’t see it. You can tell them what happened.”
“Are you a bad dad?” she asked.
I turned toward her. “I missed things I should have noticed. That hurt you. I’m going to keep showing you I can do better.”
She leaned against me.
That night, Vanessa called again. Dana had arranged for her to communicate about Caleb and Ava through a written channel, but she used my personal number.
“You let strangers question my children,” she said.
“They needed someone to hear them.”
“You’re destroying this family.”
I thought of Nia’s photograph hidden in the garage.
“No,” I said. “I’m finding out what happened in it.”
After I ended the call, a bank notification arrived. Vanessa had tried to move another large amount from the joint account. The bank had paused the transfer because of the review I had requested.
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I sent the notice to Dana.
Then I went upstairs and checked on all three children before I slept.