Chapter 5

Noah brought a different project to the library.
A little wooden car missing one wheel.
“Can we make it work?”
“We can try.”
He held it tightly.
“Dad bought it.”
I looked at Lena.
She nodded slightly.
There was nothing to say except, “Then we’ll be careful with it.”
Noah watched while I measured the axle. I explained what I was doing before touching any piece. He asked whether the new wheel had to match.
“It would help.”
“What if it doesn’t?”
“It can still work.”
He considered that for a long time.
We found a replacement in my box of small parts. I asked permission to bring the box, and the librarian said we could use a work mat.
When the car rolled, Noah smiled.
Then he looked toward the library entrance.
I had noticed him checking it since we arrived.
“Are you waiting for someone?” I asked.
He shook his head too quickly.
Lena moved closer.
“Noah, you can tell us.”
He put the car down.
“Dad said Oak has a record.”
My hands stopped.
Lena closed her eyes briefly.
Derek had called during the scheduled time. She had stayed nearby, but Noah took the phone into his bedroom for part of the conversation.
“What did he say?” she asked.
“That Oak hurt somebody. That bikers aren’t safe.”
I looked at my grandson.
There was truth inside the way Derek chose to use it.
When I was twenty-two, I got into a fight outside a bar. A man was hurt. I pleaded guilty, faced consequences, and spent years trying to become someone who solved trouble without his fists.
I had told Lena about it when she was old enough.
I would not make Noah discover it through a man trying to frighten him.
“I did hurt someone when I was young,” I said.
His eyes widened.
“I was wrong. I faced consequences. I changed how I lived.”
“Did you say sorry?”
“Yes.”
“Did that fix it?”
“No. Saying sorry was only part of it.”
He looked at Lena.
She sat beside him.
“I knew about Grandpa’s past before Family Day. The school knew the visitors they approved. You didn’t do anything wrong by asking for support.”
Grandpa.
She said it without looking at me.
I felt the word and kept my attention on Noah.
“Are you scared of me?” I asked.
He shook his head.
“Dad said I should be.”
“You can ask questions about anyone,” I told him. “You don’t have to ignore what worries you.”
He touched the wooden car.
“I was worried you’d get mad.”
“I’m glad you asked.”
That evening, Lena told me Derek had filed papers asking to change the parenting arrangement. He claimed the club created an unsafe environment.
“He used the photograph,” she said.
I offered to help pay for a lawyer.
She hesitated.
“I don’t want money to mean you get decisions.”
“It won’t.”
“I need that clear.”
“Write it down if you want.”
She did.
I signed it with relief.
She found an attorney named Simone Price. I gave the attorney my history honestly and provided information about the school’s approval, the club’s work, and the library visits.
Simone did not promise the court would like me.
She said evidence mattered more than appearances.
Lena gathered messages from Derek, records of missed visits, and the school’s account of the attempted pickup. She did the work.
I helped with rides when asked.
I watched Noah at the library while she met her attorney.
I kept my opinions about Derek out of the boy’s hearing.
One afternoon, Noah asked if I had a picture of Lena when she was nine.
I brought an album the following week.
He stared at a photograph of her holding a fish.
“Mom caught that?”
“She did.”
“Was she scared?”
“She made me take it off the hook.”
Lena smiled.
“That fish bit you.”
“It objected to my technique.”
Noah laughed.
We turned more pages.
At one photograph, Lena’s smile faded.
She stood beside Ruth, my wife, holding a birthday cake.
Noah touched the corner.
“Who’s that?”
“Your grandmother,” Lena said.
“Did she know me?”
“No. She died before you were born.”
“Would she like me?”
Lena’s eyes filled.
“She would love you.”
I looked away until I could speak.
“She would have liked your questions.”
Noah nodded.
Then he asked if we could take a picture for the album now.
Lena looked at me.
“Yes,” she said.
We asked the librarian.
This time, there were only three of us.
May you like
No engines. No badges. No crowd.
I kept that photograph on my workbench where I could see it every day.